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Lets start with this: i'm currently 17 and i currently have 8 "alters" who have been with me for about 9 to 10 years, but have been more active for the last 3 to 5. They arent the same as me and it feels like they are completely seperate people from me. I can kind of see them in my minds eye, they have different appearances, likes and dislikes, and even different and conflicting likes and dislikes of food.(one or two like seafood, and i cant stand it, that kind of thing)

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TRAUMA:

At ages 2-4, whenever i cried or did anything that annoyed him or he didnt like, my brothers dad (same mom, different dads) would stick me under ice cold water in the shower and hold me there, he would scream in my face and hit me, and i dont know how many times i was sexually abused by him, at least 2 times that i remember (those memories surfaced at about 11). I dont know what some of the other things were that he did to me, but i know that there were more, my mom has told me about a few of the physical and emotional things he did. They got divorced and we moved to california when i was 3 and my brother was 2. I dont remember why, but for some reason my brother and i always had to fly by ourselves, and even though i didnt legally need to, i went with so my brother wouldnt be lonely and stuff. i stoppped going after we got back from His dads house in idaho and told my mom what had happened.

From age 3 to current, i have been emotionally abused by my grandparents, and from age 3 to about 13, they were also a little bit physically abusive. They bully me, and call me names, and telling me i'm a "worthless piece of s***" or "get your stupid worthless a** out here" are the most frequently used. Sometimes when she got really mad, my grandma would come at like shes going to hit me, just to scare me, or she would get right up in my face and slap me really hard across the face, chest, arms, or back multiple times really hard. (she doesnt anymore). My grandpa still gets up in my face if he doesnt like something i did for whatever "reason" he picked this time. Even though he's in his mid to late 70's, having a scruffy, 6'2" ex-marine bellowing 2 inches from your face is not exactly the most pleasant thing in the world, especially when he follows close behind if you try to get away.

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ALTERS:

The only ones who know about my "alters" are my mom and my now ex, who left because of an "alter" i have called Vi (pronounced Vee, like the letter V) Speaking of which, these are my alters:

Vi- (Fem. 23) Very sexual, dangerous, psychotic, sadistic (is able to mentally overpower me and keep me in what i'm guessing is co-conscious? She keeps me in a spot where I am forced to watch her do whatever she wants in my body. Its unnerving to say the least.)

Dreya- (Fem. 24) Leader, protective, Level headed, works with James to overpower Vi, very masculine sense of style(kind of butch)

James- (Male. 27) Laid back, protective, pretty "Chill" for the most part, works with Dreya to overpower Vi

Annabelle- (Fem. 8) Dangerously submissive in general, (but also sexually), sexually abused, slightly masochistic, self harms, strong flinch reaction to quick movements (especially towards her) and jumps at loud noises.

Diana- (Fem. 19) Gets into a lot of fights, frequent relapsing bulimia, emotionally cold/numb, alcoholic, trouble understanding peoples intentions, gothic

Feral- (Unknown) Dire Wolf, sometimes comes out in fight/flight, primal, wild/animalistic

Jamie- (Fem. somewhere in her 20's) Popular girl attitude, super friendly, carefree, girly girl

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Maya- (Fem. [18+] specifics unknown) I dont really know anything about Maya. Sometimes she tells me to hurt other people or myself,(Ive never hurt anyone else, but i've struggled with self harm in the past. She mainly just a voice and a figure in my mind, she doesnt really come out anymore. When she used to take over, i would lose time, and come back with words carved deep into the skin on my thighs, stomach, and hips.)

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NOTE: When i say Vi is psychotic, i mean psychotic as in planned to kidnap and do possibly life threatening and definitely abusive things to my then boyfriend (she didnt get the chance to, i broke it off and stayed away from people in general) To me, she seems like the criminals and killers you hear about on the news.

SWITCHING:

When i "switch" with my alters, most of the time i can see myself, like i'm standing next to, or floating above my body. other times i lose time in general. like one second im going to bed on a saturday, and then im walking to class thursday afternoon. This has happened, although rarely, but when i switch, its just pure inky black, i'm aware that time has passed, but not how much. When i am aware, i cant control my body, my voice, anything. i'm watching myself say and do things that i wouldn't or shouldn't be doing. Half of the time, the switches are automatic, or triggered by a sound, smell, etc. or by the atmosphere of the area i'm in. The other half of the time, they either ask to be let out, which i usually okay, or in Vi's case, push their way out whether they have my okay to do it or not. Whats really strange to me, is that sometimes, an alter gets pushed out when they arent a good match for that situation, and they cant get back in, and i cant get back out. For example, Annabelle might get pushed into a spot where say Dreya or James may have been better suited, and shes locked there until i can get back out somehow.

Also, whenever an alter is out, i have a notebook that we are all supposed to write in who was out, how long, what they did and said to people, and anything else that might be important, like jobs they did or important interactions they had. As for Vi, she doesn't cooperate no matter what I do, how much i compromise, or how much time she gets out. I am not really interested in integration. I would like to be able to work together to make a reasonably functional person or system that can participate in the world as normally as one can with this kind of stuff going on.

ALMOST DONE:

I dont know whats going on guys, and i'm scared. I dont know how to drive yet, i dont have the money to go to a specialist or even a decent psychologist, and my insurance is terrible. I just want some answers, I am not looking for a diagnosis. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and sorry that this post is so long. Any input helps.

Please send me whatever you are smoking.

My name is Beverley Sandler and I am a highly qualified Counsellor in Manchester. I read your post with great interest and can relate to a lot of what you have said.

Just a quick thank you for creating the content and if you ever need any insight into Cognitive Behavioural Therapy or Wellness Coaching I would be more than happy to help.

How is your mother now
My daughter is in hospital and they have said she is brain dead
Is she still here

Hey Robert, I am currently seeking out ayurvedic help for this proble of music in the head and other mental health concerns. Did you go through any specific ayurveda treatment? Or took a specific combinations of herbs?

Also how long did it take before the music subsided?

Thanks!

I used paper chromosomes instead and they worked as well. I also had the students draw the cells on their desk in chalk and put the chromosomes in the cells.

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I realize that this comment is several years old but I'm hoping you're still interested in answering questions. If not, then I certainly will respect that without hesitation. I'm asking these questions for a story I'm writing, and have been endlessly researching this without any solid answers in the areas I'm about to propose questions for.

I really only have two questions, which are:

A.) Can you feel normal textures? Can you physically feel a rough, furry, or wet texture - not just knowing sensibly that that is what the texture is but actually physically feel it?

B.) This is pretty personal/intimate and if you especially don't want to answer it then I will also completely understand, but are you able to feel any physical sexual stimulation?

I don't know if you'll get this, but I'm going to try anyway. Your ex is abusive. I was in the same situation, except my ex used ADD. I was diagnosed with PMDD while going through therapy to try and manage my ADD because *it* was the reason we were having problems in our relationship. What you said about making the conscious decision to handle yourself and his behaviors coming out really resonated with me - it was the same. It was through this treatment and process of revelation/change/growth that I realized the difference between what was true about my own behaviors and what he wanted me to feel, how he wanted to put me at fault. What was real about the effects of my behaviors and him manipulating me. This is abuse.

I wonder if, looking back, you see that his disrespect, irresponsibility, uncaring, deliberate behaviors were there all along. And, in your growth or recognition of the absurdity of his (abusive) behavior or the process of his losing control over you, his behaviors became extreme and more easily recognizable.

The answer to your question is NO. Don't feel stupid - what you're experiencing is abuse. Questioning yourself like this (especially the types of questions you're asking) is a sign of abuse. Psychological, emotional, and verbal abuse are just as, if not more, powerful, painful, and damaging as being punched in the face, over and over.
(http://stoprelationshipabuse.org/educated/types-of-abuse/)

I can see very clearly lots of abuse in your comments. It's wise (and admirable) of you to uncover what your role in all of this is. I recommend Melanie Tonia Evans's work (http://www.melanietoniaevans.com), the website mentioned above, and https://www.psychopathfree.com/articles/ (there's also a book but I haven't read it).

For PMDD, I recommend calcium (1000mg) + magnesium (400mg) + B6 (50mg), with or without Beyaz (birth control). Talk to your doctor, a good gyno can help you with this.

I hope all is well with you and that you are healing, both physically and mentally/emotionally.

XOXO

i was sleep deprived and then this happened,
i was working and suddenly my eyes would close and i would instantly go into a dream while i was stillawake,
i call it a dreams because i could hear some people communicating or speaking as if i was standing with them (though there as no one around ) or they were saying unusual things related to my work stuff.
the whole process would last 120 seconds after which i would snap out of it and open my eyes, is this is known as day dreaming/lucid dreaming/ going insane? is this healthy

Well 3 months ago my best friend died in a bike crash then a week later i was sittinf on my bed and felt i was goinf out of my body ontop of my head or like i was in my head and a panicde and for 2 weeks i was like really woozy feeling like i was flouting abd from that day im not myself any more so scared the hole time and my vision is so weird and i did test my eyes and it feels like i cant think but im scared i have schizophrenia plz help

What role did the Rev. Dr. Howard Thurman have in this experiment?

As a non-religious person with temporal lobe epilepsy, I found the study mentioned to have some pretty big loopholes. For example, when I tell someone that I have seizures, it's not unusual for them to tell me they'll "pray for me." I cannot tell you how irritating that is, (if I wanted your prayer I'd ask for it!) and to be honest I have a full-grown aversion to Christianity now. I do find a lot of very religious people in the epilepsy community, who became that way when they needed hope and emotional support. Religious faith gives people the strength to get through difficult times- but I've never met someone who had visions along with their seizures.