Thinking about today

I agree with aphorisnt and I also find myself thinking about today's conversation and processing today--and this whole semester. I too feel as if there are times I didn't really allow for absolute and complete porosity of my life, my thoughts, my pursuit of the knowledge and learning we were doing in context to the class and the space that was created with this 360 dynamic.  I was used to compartamentalizing. I was scared to used Serendip, to have my voice and my words being so naked and out there. What if I was wrong? But then, I kept thinking of the progress I felt I had gained in my own experiences. I hesitate even know to bring it back to my own experience. It seems too centric of me, me, me. But that is also the only way I could frame being in this 360. Today, when we were writing, I was at a loss for words. I found myself too facing the tiger, language failing me. But I remembered, I remembered that when all is said and done, when everything has happened, when we plan and go about life, no matter what the end result is, no matter how hard or difficult or twisty and curvy the path may have been to get where you are, my mother always reminded to take a step back to say alhumdullilah. Thanks be to God. Thanks doesn't become to cover the sentiment and connotation of alhumdullilah. In it's purest form it's aknowledging the existence and utter nature of this world as being just the way it is. Sometimes, I think about how our environment shapes us. What does is truly mean to be "eco-literate" ? I feel like this is the beginning of my questioning. Slowly starting to feel more comfortable to make claims about this Bryn Mawr environment for example. There would be times during conversation in class where I feel like I wouldn't be on the same mind track as others or where the dialogue would be going. There would be points, where I would feel a little aware of the fact that I was a conservative, non-White, religious student in the class, on this liberal campus. My world, is part of our world. Or it at least come from it. I think I just have been really thinking of this circling around and going in circles idea and thinking of what can actually be done. I think we have each pushed and questioned, and took even if only baby steps, towards truly attempting to impact our campus, our environment in some way. I think we haven't stayed silent. So all in all, the things that did happen this semester, the things that didn't, alhumdullilah for it all.