isolated or connected?

this is a retroactive posting of the seventh inside posting (it was emailed originally)

re-imaginings of my first site sit and scape of the campus

- morris woods = natural; park = unnatural..... it's not even built of stone as much of the campus is, it's concrete i believe?
- park is slightly isolated from main campus by it's distance, but it's still a hub that's connected because of the trickle of students going to and from their labs and classes
- it seems like this semester i've been craving connection to people even though I've wanted my own sort of bubble or space to live in
- i wanted to be around people, to have friends spend time with me and to see others go about their schedules around park.... but it's an indirect way of connecting and interacting rather than an active way
- i've had my own "bubble" both within my single dorm room in merion and within my space down by park. Even though people walked through my site sit space, they were often on their way somewhere so there was no reason for them to stop and interface. this means that although i was seeing others i wasn't actually connecting with them, leaving me alone in my site sit space.
- i think i'm going to move further out so that I can now have that alone space combined with the calming of the more natural setting of morris. I know that things like the smell of trees or rain or the sound of birds cause me to relax physically as a sort of instinctual effect
- when i first wrote about my space down by park, I claimed that the pathways were the foreground to me and the hillside leading down from campus was the background. I wrote: "I guess the people are just as much a part of my space as the architecture." and I think that at the time I saw this as an active part of my environment, but now I realize just how apt that description is
- at this point I would say that the foreground to my site sits was more often the table I was sitting at, the lamppost just in front of the physics wing (the posters on it were always changing) and the little patches of grass which told a miniature story of the recent weather. I ended up watching the ground more than the people so I almost feel like this became my foreground and the students faded into the background.
- at this point i'm not sure what term would best fit to my scape, but i know that initially i thought it was a connected space and a part of the community, but i now realize that my scape was a bit smaller than that, a bit more isolated to just me and my own thoughts, regardless of how physically close others may have been. I wouldn't say that I went from "connection" to "isolation" as that seems dramatic, but there was definitely a shift from what I thought I had found.