March 26, 2017 - 22:43
This week I wrote a song heavily inspired by our class and discussions. I thought I'd share the link to it and the lyrics. Listening link below.
https://helena-regina.bandcamp.com/track/dis-connection
(Dis) Connection
Driving down the interstate matching skull pins from New Orleans
He’s going on about all the work he wants to do all these crazy ambitious things
Calaveras kisses and mariachi bands and guests from out of state and it’s out of my hands
And it’s weird to feel so connected and also so lost in the hopefully chatter of his words
And I just want to feel connected to something that’s so brand new that
I get lost talking about it and answering questions I don’t understand
And where is the line between helping and haunting
And where is the part where I’m hurting what I love
How do I keep my loved ones from the guillotine
When I don’t even have my head on straight
Placing all the books in the boxes in the bins and I’m pulling rubber bands like I’m peeling skin
Saying that I’ve read that book already and recommending it to someone barred from and
Talking to the others and I don’t know their pasts and I shouldn’t even care, I’m not last
so I don’t have to feel caught in my guilt of being a college student who thinks she counts
And I just want to be in tune with the songs that they’re playing
On the radio as I pick another book of the shelf
And the where it is the line between helping and hurting
And where is the part where I’m hurting where I love
How do I keep my loved ones from the guillotine
When I don’t even have my head on straight
In class we think all these big thoughts like reform and changes and lofty ideas with books
And then we have all these talks and I can’t help feeling like a cat trapped in a box
I can’t break myself out of the tape that holds me anymore that I can save someone else
I feel like stopping is the opposite of fixing but I don’t even think I’ve started yet
And I just want to say smart and clever
But the words don’t want to come out in any way that matters
I don’t want to save anyone who doesn’t want me
But how do I even know who to ask
I don’t want to leave anyone who needs me
But how do I even understand that
And the where is the line between helping and hurting
And where is the part where I’m hurting where I love
How do I keep my loved ones from the guillotine
When I don’t even have my head on straight
I don’t know
I don’t know
Is it love
I don’t love
Comments
Thank you for sharing this!
Submitted by jane doe on April 4, 2017 - 15:59 Permalink
Thank you for sharing this!
How can we grow with others without prefacing our own growth or their own growth?