Name: Michael Martin
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Wed Oct 2 14:55:32 EDT 1996
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Blaire, I found this page while i was touring your homepage. This could be one way in which we can communicate. We could meet here during designated times and days. It isn't the same as being here, but it is better than writing letters that take forever to get where they are going. I hope you can under stand my frustration in all this. I want you to succeed in everything you do, but i do not want to let you go. I've never felt this way about anyone before and i feel as if i should atleast try to keep you home. i know i will miss you so much and won't see that often. Please do not think that i will hate you just because you are the one who is going away. I will just miss you so much and the idea just ?tares? me up inside. I know you can understand this, because of this summer. To me though this summer was a cake walk compared to what you going away to college will be like. We were able to see each other a lot and could talk on the phone vitually everyday. When you go off to school we will not be able to see each at all and will have no money dispite what you say about working to afford talking on the phone very often. I will however come to terms with this and will find out some way in which we can talk on the phone more often. I want you to know i love you and will not let you go so easily. I have know for a long time you were going to leave me, but last night it finally hit how much it is really going to suck. Anyway, this page could help us in communicating and doing it for free. Well i have written enough so i must let you go so i may go and meet you at your bus stop. I love you with all my heart and soul Michael

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Fri Oct 4 23:09:44 EDT 1996
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Michael: There should be another message...I just want to see if this one will save. From: Blaire I love you. Thankyou for that haert touching letter...

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Wed Oct 9 13:52:36 EDT 1996
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I see that you haven't been back to visit this site, neither has anyone else So I don't think we're bothering too many people... I'm glad we've reached more of an understanding concerning this college thing, though I don't think that we're all the way there yet. I hope you don't keep any of your feelings about this from me. I need to hear any and all concerns that you have or may have in the future. They're important. The above mentioned letter that you wrote helped ease some of the feelings that are going on, but I don't think I'll be totally ok with leaving unless you're alright with it. I really don't think that either one of us will ever be totally at ease with this. I think we'll just have to make the best of whatever comes to be (wherever I go). When it comes down to it my main concern isn't if you & I will be able to handle being seperated, because I think if both want it to work then it will I know that it'll be hell being apart from you because I'll miss you SO SO much. that is what will be the worst, just being away from you--all other things aside. I love you so much that being away from you for a million years, a million miles away would not make my feelings change. You are my everything, that is the only way to say it. With Love, Blaire

Name: Michael Martin
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Fri Oct 18 22:57:27 EDT 1996
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Hey baby, Tonight has been alot of fun and i thank yo for bringing me into your activities. Why are you reading over my shoulder you stupid idiot. anyway, i just wanted to write you back and let you know that i care for you very much and i will just have to come to terms with you leaving it does suck but i think that if we really work at it, better than others i have seen we will be able to do it. i am beginning to understand your view on this whole thing and i am coming to terms with it all. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH MICHAEL

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Wed Oct 23 08:40:59 EDT 1996
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I'm so glad that you're undertandng things better now--it makes me feel a lot better just knowing that. I KNOW that we can make this thing work it'll be tough, but anything that doesn't kill you makes you stronger. So when this college thing is all said and done, and we've survived being apart then we'll be much stronger because of it. Aside from that it will suck being away from you. I missed you like crazy when we were apart for only two weeks this summer...but we'll be alright. thank you for trying with me on this one, it means the world to me that you care so much. That is only one of the reasons I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! Blaire

Name: Michael Martin
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Wed Oct 23 15:24:20 EDT 1996
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Blaire, i hope no one is getting angry about us using this page to write our secret letters. anyway, i just want you to know that it will take we awhile to understand and come to terms with this whole college thing. i have known for awhile yo would be going away but then i did not have to deal with it. now i do. the reason i am giving you so much crap about going to a small school is that i do not want you to make a mistake based on not understanding everything a large school offers. i must also understand that a feeling of comfortableness you felt at bryn mawr is important as well. all i want is your happiness and i am not trying to persuade you to go to i.u. frankly i hope you get into harvard. Then i can brag to all of my friends about my girlfriend that is smart enogh to attend there. I hope you are happy wherever you go to school. i am serious about moving and teaching in the state you attend school. i am not sure however whether i will do this for your undergraduate studies or the other. will see what state i am in regarding my career. well i have to go and meet with you. i love you with all my heart and soul. your frognan, Michael

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Tue Oct 29 07:54:17 EST 1996
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hi, there! I think this should be renamed the Blaire & Michael page or something like that since we are the only ones who ever post anything. I was reading over the things you wrote me before and in the first one you you mentioned something about knowing that I was going to leave you for a long time--that isn't how it is. I'm not doing this to leave you, I'm NOT leaving YOU, I'm going away to school. Though I guess it's one in the same but I'm not going so that I can leave you, that is as far from the truth as one could get. As far as understanding all of this we may not ever fully be able to (understand), but we'll come to terms with it, eventually. It's really amazing exactly how great you and I are together. We've been together for a relatively long amount of time and we haven't had many problems. We're doing well! I love being with you, I'm the luckiest person for having you in my life. Thank you. You are wonderful, sweet, and incredibly funny, sensitive, giving, intelligent and of course gorgeous (sexy) You knoe this already though --I'm sure. I have to get to class now. I'll see you this afternoon. I LOVE YOU. Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Wed Oct 30 07:46:13 EST 1996
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THANKS SO MUCH FOR LEAVING ME A MESSAGE AFTER YOU READ YOURS!!!! Thanks so much... I don't know what to say since you left nothing for me to respond to! Spending time with you was great yesterday. Ummm, Hmmm,... OK I'm not writing anymore until you write to me. I'll see you this afternoon. :) Love, Blaire

Name: Michael Martin.
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Wed Oct 30 14:19:29 EST 1996
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hey, i am sorry i did not write you back the other day, but when i read your message i was in a hurry to go and see you. yes, spending time with me was great last night, wasn't it. just kidding. everyday i try and narrow down my feelings towards this whole college thing. i know you are not leaving me, but you are going awwy and i must deal with this. i think the reason i have a problem with you leaving is i am scared. i have come to realize how much you truly do love me, but you will be far away. I am afaraid that you'll will become good freinds with whoever and not intentionally become involved with them. i know, this is stupid. i know you must feel the same way and so my question to you is how do you cope with it. how do you handle the idea that i will be far away from you and may become close to some other girl. maybe if i saw how you handle it, i could deal with it better. it's just that i feel so lucky to have met you and to have you in my life that i am afraid my luck may run out. i am scared that when you go away your feelings will not seem as strong as they do with me here. i don't know. i am i crazy for having these feelings or what. well i better go so i will not be late in meeting you at the bus stop. i hope you read this soon and write me back t let me know how you feel about all of this.

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Thu Oct 31 07:42:21 EST 1996
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How do I respond to this one? Oh, my goodness, how do I cope with the idea of you meeting another girl when I'm away? I don't!! Just the thought of it makes me seeth! Maybe i'm not in touch with reality, but that hasn't been a huge concern of mine. I KNOW that there isn't anything or anyone that could make me stop loving you or anyone that I would ever want to be with besides you. I had no idea that you felt this way...OK, the way I deal with is knowing that our love and the bond we have is so strong that there is anyone that could come between that-- unless we wanted it to. MY concern has always been not that you meet someone else & just fall in love with that person, but that we end up having all kinds of problems that can't be fixed because I'm far away& that we break up & THEN you find someone else & because I'd be far awy there would be no way for me to make you realize that I love you with all of my heart and soul and that you should be with ME! I just think that we'd have to havce this relationship turn to complete hell before either one of us considered being with someone else. If I go away & either of us just meets someone else and BAM we want to be with that person then that would just show that what we have isn't strong at all, but we both know what we have is wonderful and beautiful and strong. It's not something I"d EVER let go of without a fight. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, ALWAYS. You are my everything and life would be meaningless without you in it. I hve to get to class, now. I'll see you this afternoon. WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT THIS, it's too big a deal not to. I need you to know that I'll never leave you and that any other guy always pales in comparison to you...nothing could cause me to ever want to be apart from you...distance or anything. I love you, my darling ( had to say it). Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Fri Nov 1 20:11:03 EST 1996
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I know you haven't written back yet, but I thought I'd leave you something to read when you returned to this page... I had a really good time at the party on Thursday, though I wish that I could've stayed and partied (sp?) longer. I knw you'll see me before you read this, but I hope you like my hair...it was a spur of the moment thing. We haven't talked about that thing. though if you don't want to then I guess we won't. I'll see you tomorrow (Saturday). I love you, you are my sunshine:) Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Mon Nov 4 07:39:03 EST 1996
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Since I was here I thought I'd leave a quick note... How did the nominations go? I know that you'll win, because there couldn't be and isn't anyone better than you! I hope you write soon, so that I can read all of the wonderful things you have to say. I know this message is stupid, but it's early in the morning and it's difficult to think... I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH... Blaire

Name: Michael Martin
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Mon Nov 4 14:15:58 EST 1996
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hey babe, i think you are starting to get into this now. you are visiting this page more than i am. i know we did not talk about anything this weekend but why don't we save some time this weekend to do so. i had a lot of fun at the party on thursday and yes i wish you could have stayed longer. saturday was great too and i enjoy them more each weekend. Jason finally showed up on sunday, around 6:oopm. chapter went great. i did not have to give any speaches, that will be next week. this week alli had to do was get nominated i was and i am running against one other person. the only reason i believe he ran is because no one else was going to and our house frowns on white ballots. i am looking good so far though and next week i will have to give some kind of presentation and guess what. you get to help me with it this weekend. i mean, will you help me with it this weekend? i would greatly appreciate you assistance. if there is anything i can do friday to help you, just let me know. the rest of the time i will try to keep blaine out of your hair by entertaining him with movies, cd's, and board games. can you work on finding the real monopoly for me this week so it is there this weekend. i hope you get to take a shower by this weekend, boy do i ever. JUST KIDDIN!!!! i am still blushing from all the stuff you wrote in your two previous letters. where did all that come from anyway? i want you to know that i love you very much and i do so more every day i do and don't get to see you.

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin--the love god
Date: Mon Nov 4 21:05:47 EST 1996
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Hithere! thanks for writing back--I enjoy hearing from you. I don'tknow why I'm writing now when I could be staring at your face and talking to you Oh I know why-it's because YOU NEED TO STUDY & I'd just be in your hair. What things in the other letters made you blush? Just curious... As far as the showering thing goes I don't think I"m going to all this week just so you can enjoy me even more this weekend!! HA HA-I'm kidding. We take them at michael's and Rhea's houses. Concerning the talking thing, we did talk about a lot of stuff, and that was great, we just didn't talk about our concerns about me going away to college. We never really have, only once this summer. I don't see why we don't talk about it. I kind of think that it'll keep until it's the "right" time to talk about it, but there never is a right time. Whenever I've brought up important things, I've tried to wait until that right moment,but things have always gotten messed up ( remember the first time I told you that I loved you?, well that was something that I planned to tell you at the right time, and look how that turned out.) So, we have nothing to be afraid of in talking this, I feel safer talking to you than I do to anyone else in the world. That is the complete truth. I share more with you than I have with anyone else in the world. I really loved how we took so much time talking this weekend, nothing planned , it just came naturally, like everything does with us. I will definantly help you with your election stuff, whatever you need me to do I will. That's a promise. I haven't for sure checked on this weekend, whether or not you'll be over on Friday or Saturday, I'll let you know. I have to go and talk to you now, I"ve spent too much time on this computer ANd not enough down there with you. I love you with all of my heart and all of my soul. You are the only one for me. Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Wed Nov 6 07:48:48 EST 1996
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This is cool, I didn't realize that the other messsage that I wrote on Monday actually got posted that is great... Thank you for inviting me to go to your grandmothers with you, I appreciate the offer. I actually like meeting your family, I'm just nervous that's all. I have yet to ask my mom about it, but I will. About Saturday, my mom is dropping me off with the laundry, it is on 7th and Washington. You'll probably have to just meet me there. Is that ok? You really made me feel better when I was spazzing over my SAT scores, thank you. YOu have this way of just making me feel better just being near me. You are sooo wonderful, I love you more than words could ever express... Write back soon. Blaire P.S.: I'll help you figure out your hair stuff if you'd like me to. I'll do whatever you want me to.

Name: Michael Martin
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Wed Nov 6 13:28:37 EST 1996
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hey babe, i must admit i am a little weary about disussing this topic. every time we do we get into an arugment and become very angry with each other. i enjoyed studying with you monday, maybe this is something we can do on a regular basis. we would have to do it other than monday because of my late class i can not continue to skip it. i hope you enjoy you shower. take a long, hot and wet one for me too. i am sorry, but there isn't any hot topic to talk about this time so i am going to make this one short. i am glad you are fealing better about you SAT scores. i will talk to you tonight. michael

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Fri Nov 8 07:46:31 EST 1996
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Thanks for making me blush, but that's ok! I don't recall getting angry when we've discussed this--only the large vs. small school thing, but not about our feelings. If we just listen OPENLY to eachother then I think it wqould be fine. Why did you skip that class? I didn't know that you were skipping, now I feel bad for keeping you from going to class. I seem to have a negative effect on your academic life. I apologize. I have to go, now. Sorry I don't have time to write more. Hey, I almost called you back last night,because I didn't go to bed until 12, but then I knew I'd be up ALL night...and I needed sleep. I'll talk to you toight. Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Mon Nov 11 07:28:29 EST 1996
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Hi, there...I don't have much to say, I just want to say something so that you know I'm here and thinking of you (as always). I love spending time with you. It seems like the more we're together the easier everthing is. We have a great ability to do whatever we choose when we're together and have an enjoyable time regardless of the activity. I want to apologize for being such a spazz lately, I really haven't allowed myself to ever relax because there's ALWAYS something that needs to be done. Anyways, as a result I feel that I haven't permitted myself to be as happy and carefree as I'd like and you end up having to consantly hear me griping about some aspect of my life. I'm sure you get tired of it. Spending time with you, though, makes up for all worries & misgivings I have with life. Rarely,am I anything but blissful when in your presence. ( ok, so that got a little mushier than I had intended, it wasn't suppose to be at all, sorry). I hope your Anthroplogy exam went well. Did you give your speech, and did it go well? I'll tallk to you tonight. I should go, because like I said I never had much to say & I have to work on my Econ project. I love you very, very much. Blaire P.S. Do you think that other people have visited this site, but just left it alone because it's ours(sort of)? Maybe someone knows the saga of Michael and Blaire & we don't even know it. Do you think this will still be here when we're 50? Wouldn't it be great?

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Mon Nov 11 07:29:49 EST 1996
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Hi, there...I don't have much to say, I just want to say something so that you know I'm here and thinking of you (as always). I love spending time with you. It seems like the more we're together the easier everthing is. We have a great ability to do whatever we choose when we're together and have an enjoyable time regardless of the activity. I want to apologize for being such a spazz lately, I really haven't allowed myself to ever relax because there's ALWAYS something that needs to be done. Anyways, as a result I feel that I haven't permitted myself to be as happy and carefree as I'd like and you end up having to consantly hear me griping about some aspect of my life. I'm sure you get tired of it. Spending time with you, though, makes up for all worries & misgivings I have with life. Rarely,am I anything but blissful when in your presence. ( ok, so that got a little mushier than I had intended, it wasn't suppose to be at all, sorry). I hope your Anthroplogy exam went well. Did you give your speech, and did it go well? I'll tallk to you tonight. I should go, because like I said I never had much to say & I have to work on my Econ project. I love you very, very much. Blaire P.S. Do you think that other people have visited this site, but just left it alone because it's ours(sort of)? Maybe someone knows the saga of Michael and Blaire & we don't even know it. Do you think this will still be here when we're 50? Wouldn't it be great?

Name: Michael Martin
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Mon Nov 11 14:15:52 EST 1996
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Hey, thank you for writing me. i admit sometimes i do get a little weary about hearing your woes, but i like helping you. i like to talk with you about your worries so i can help and make you feel better. you do the same for me when i am upset about something. this is what our relationship is all about. speaking of which i, i totally forgot all about you and i talking this weekend about you going away to school. it wasn't that i didn't want to talk about it, i just forgot. i sware. i did not have to give my speech last night i am supposed to give it next week, i guess. i am glad about this though because i want to talk to the current secretary about programs he thinks i should initiate or change. my anthropology test went great. actually i did not have it. right after i got back to the library i checked my e-mail. i had written my a105 teacher earlier in the week asking her questions about the test. when i checked my e-mail yesterday she had written me back. she answered all of my questions and asked me if i was preparing for the test on the 18th. i thought to myself oh shit the 18th that's next week. so end of story the test is not tonight it is next week. ISN'T THAT GREAT!!!! i talked with my mother about this and she does not want me to go next weekend and help my grandmother move since i have my test next monday. ISN'T THAT GREAT!!! i did remember to call my g-ma though. my dad seemed impressed that i ma running for secretary, when i told him. he was worried for a second that it would take up too much of my time, than i assured him that it would not and he seemed impressed. i think i have a pretty good chance of winning. well i will let you go so i may work on my class schedule for next semester. i miss you even a day since have not talked and i love you very much. Michael

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Tue Nov 12 07:35:29 EST 1996
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Hi, Michael: I'm glad everything has turned out better than you had anticipated. Now you know that you'll kick ass on your test & that speech (which will lead you to being elected). I know you'll do wonderfully. As far as this weekend goes, I know you have a lot going on so if you need Saturday to accomplish these things then use it. I understand that you may need more time for other activities, now. I don't want to be the cause of you not succeeding to your full potential. Do you know where I'm coming from? It isn't that I don't want to see, I just know that you may need to devote more time to other area's of your life. Just know that you can take the time you need without worry that you'll upset me. OK? I forgot, too, to talk about college this weekend. I'm rather tired of thinking about it (not concerning us, just about college in general). WE'll talk about it eventually, when it is necessary. It is really strange, but I have had a persistant feeling that something is not OK. Are we ok? Am I totally stupid for feeling this? I have no idea where this is coming from. I don't know... I have to go work on W131, now. I'll see you this afternoon I love you so very much. Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Wed Nov 13 12:47:51 EST 1996
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Hi, my Michael: Geez, I think you should write back even if you don't have much to say. OK? I just like to hear from you, that's all... Bye,now. Iloveyou. Blaire

Name: Michael Martin
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Sat Nov 16 14:03:42 EST 1996
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Blaire, isn't this great blaire we have our own page. i realy appreciate what has been done for us. i wonder if by following along they meen reading our messages. if they have, that's o.k. not like we put anything too personal in our letters. i wonder who it was that came up with the idea to give the worldly romantics our own page. i am having fun today so far and i am looking forward to seeing romeo and juliet this evening. those are two kids who were truly romantics. i am sorry about the argument we had about the sexual preferences of people and what this may or may not mean about them. i should have known that it was a touchy subject and not to push my luck. i hope someday we can come to some kind of agreement concerning this issue. well i will go now because you look like you may fall asleep any moment. i am sorry i am boring you. talk to ya later, your studly frogman, Michael

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Sat Nov 16 14:11:25 EST 1996
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Hi,there! I was not about to fall asleep ,it's just that I was mesmerized by your words! That's all... As far as the argument goes, I was the one that kept pushing it to the limit, and I am the one that made it personal ( though I hadn't intended to do that). And I really don't think we'll ever agree on this issue, unless one of us gives in and I know it won't be me and I don't think it'll be you either--you're rather opinionated your self--you just don't enjoy "arguing" like I do... I DO NOT get mad I'm just passionate about what I feel, at least on this issue. We don't have agree on everything, no one does. It is cool that we have our own page and that Serendip was so considerate as to do this for us,and not just erase our letters forever. I can't think of much more to say, so I'll go, now and spend time talking to you instead of writing on the computer and having you read it as I go along. Love, Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: MIchael Martin
Date: Sun Nov 17 19:28:27 EST 1996
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I'm sooo pissed! This STUPID computer won't let me retrieve my mail or even get to that site for that matter. It keeps teeling me that Netscape has set up a General Protection Fault. This is quite irritating, I've had to re-start my computer 7 or 8 times... (Anyways)... This weekend was perfect (with the exception of that little argument), I'm glad that we ended up seeing Romeo & Juliet,and I'm even more glad that you liked it so well. It was a superb movie. I'm so very happy that we talked about those things. I didn;t even really know that I was thinking that much about it... I mean it wasn't something that I was thinking about and thought that I needed to tell you , it was just something that came up. Thank you for giving me time to figure out everything that I want. I really appreciate that.You know how I feel & I know how you feel. the more I've thought about it the more I realize that thtere isn't a need to rush & from what you told me in the car when you were taking me home I realized you probably feel that way too. The feeling of winning over "temptation" is definantly a good one. I think maybe that is more important to you than you even think. About the college thing... We deserve an award for trying so hard to relive each others fears. Though I don't know how much was accomplished. I have figured out a way to look at this thing: We both have the same basic fear( about other people becoming important in our lives & "things" happening) we have both tried so hard to alleviate those fears and we've both ended up telling each other the same thing. Neither of us is really hearing what the othr is saying. Am I correct? But I'm teling you not to worry and in the next breath you're telling me not worry. If we would take our own advice then we'd be fine. If we put ourselves in each others place then we'd be O.K.... Pretned you're going away to college and I"m staying here, Would things happen if you met the most incredible girl in the world just because I'm not there? If I were staying I wouldn't just forget about you or fall into someone else's arms. It doesn't work that way. Something else that came to me, Are we trying to convince ourselves that nothing is going to happen, on our parts, when I go away? I don't think I am & I really don't think you are. The big question is:Why are we being so crazy as to think our love won't be strong enough to survive and another person could easily replace each of us in our hearts? I trust what we have too much to honestly say that I think you would do anything or that I would do anything to jeopardize our relationship. I would not ever do anything to hurt you. I love you too much for that. I'm afraid of how much it's going to hurt when I'm not near you though. the distance will be brutal ( why am I torturing myself like this?) i'llstop this insanity. I love you passionatly with all that i am and with all of my heart. Write Back soon. Blaire

Name: Michael
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Subject: Blaire
Date: Mon Nov 18 14:31:11 EST 1996
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Blaire, hey girl, what's up. i think you are right. i know that if i went away there could be no one that would come between us. and i should realize the same thing goes for you also. i am feeling a lot better about you going away and although i still do not like it, my fears are subsiding. i now just do not like the idea that you will be far away from me and that i will not be able to hold you or anything for so long. yes i believe we can still communicate over e-mail or whatever but nothing compare to expressing our affection than a good hug from someone you love. this is going to hurt me alot, but i know that when you do come home i will crush you with my strength and enthusiasm. the elections did not go so well. everyone who did show up for the muldoon episode(only about 15 people) were really angry at the rest of us and i think took it out on us by not voting us into office. i am told it was a close race and that it came down to just a few votes. i believe i did great in my speech i didn't read it word for word, but i expressed it just as well. i am getting pretty frustrated though, with the muldoon thing and the elections. i am beginning to think that we will all continue to be fucked up the ass about this whole thing forever and never forgiven. i was walking with one of the brothers who stayed for the initiation and he was quiet, did not say much,and as soon as he saw a way to get away from me(the bus) he jumped on it without barely uttering a goodbye or see ya later. what the fuck? i have to stand up in front of J-board wednesday and tell them why i did not attend and they will probably fine me , but if i have to pay a little money or do a little extra cleaning to keep my dignity i believe it was worth it and i would do it all over againg. i love you and i wish you were here. Michael

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Tue Nov 19 07:31:08 EST 1996
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Michael, I'm so very sorry that luck was not in your favor and that you got unfairly fucked! I was afraid for you that something like this was going to happen, but I also knew that you had to do what was right in that situation--and you protested against what you thought was wrong, took a stand to let others really know how you felt. From what you told me your words fell on deaf ears, and however the outcome they will you know that do not suppport this decision & probably dislike(o.k., hate) him even more now. I hope they aren't hard on you, or I'll have to come and kick their asses(sp?). It is yet another injustice to you and all that abstained from attending, that you are actually having disciplinary action being taken, just because you stood up for yourself. That is bullshit. I'm sorry that things turned out this way for you, but don't lose hope that you will one day be able to change things & don't give in just because they try to break you (random note: Upon reading over this so far it sounds like I'm some important speech, Sorry--it's the only way I can express what I need to say.) If it's worth anything I'm proud that you did this, and as far as the elections go I'm sorry you weren't elected, but there is always next year. It came down to what was more important & from how you sound it seems like you made the right choice as to the battle you chose to fight. About the fines and stuff: Is this action being taken against everyone else involved? or is it just you and a few chosen others? Is there anything else you can do. And that brother that was treating you like shit, that's just rude because there are people that you don't agree with,but you don't act like that towards them. IF I can do anything for you or you need anyone to talk to( I'm always here for that), just call at any time. I'll be sure to answer the phone, whatever the time.I promise(unless I'm so asleep that I don't hear it, but that probably won't happen). I love you and am here for you always for anything. Love, Blaire

Name: Blaire
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Subject: Michael
Date: Tue Nov 19 18:13:15 EST 1996
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I just wanted to let you know that I do in fact want to spend the day with you on Saturday. I'll have 4 days next week to sleep in and I may not see you for about 2 weeks if I am no table to spend Thanksgiving with you and your family. Sorry I couldn't e-mail this, but the computer keeps denying me access. Oh, about the other message, ignore all the stupid stuff, it did sound pretty bad but I tried! Talk to you later. Love, Blaire

Name: Michael Martin
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Subject: Blaire Eveland
Date: Fri Nov 22 14:19:12 EST 1996
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Blaire, i am sorry i have not written you for a while but the time i do this is furing my w200 class and i have been working on my home page. by the way your picture is on my page, but the page is not posted yet. i will show it to you this weekend. i am also sorry i have not called you either. this week has been so busy full of late nights and such. i tried (about 2 a.m.) to call you last night but your dad answered and i knew he would not appreciate me calling so late, but your letter did say anytime, so i decided to take you up on that offer. i will call you tonight and let you know everything that has been going on in my life and make plans for saturday. i love you so much and i feel so bad for not being able to talk with this week, but this I week stuff is intense and long lasting. don't worry about saturday the week will be over by then and there will just be some brother hanging out drinking and stuff we can or not hang out with them. i am going to cut this message short because i must go register by. i love you. michael**

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Mon Nov 25 11:55:14 EST 1996
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Michael, It's so funny! I was reading over other comments that we had posted to each other & one of us said this (playground) should be renamed the "Michael & Blaire" page. Well, it almost is, it is our site, now. I figured out the phone mystery and why I didn't wake up when you called: the ringer was turned off on my phone fo rsome reason. I turned back onto high. So, next time I SHOULD wake. I'm sorry, though, that I didn't get your call. To be honest I'm nervous about Thanksgiving--I never know what to say or how to act. I don't want to end up following you around at like a little puppy dog or anything like that. I'm sure it'll be fine. It has been ok the other times that I participated in your family functions. And the more I do this the less nervous I'll become... I have to go. I love you. There is something I sort of want to discuss with you, maybe, but if you read this today, on Monday, then I don't want to discuss it today. IT's something that needs a little time to talk about. I'm just telling you this now, not to drive you insane, but to make myself actually talk & now that yo know you won't let me get out of it... I'm going now. I'll see you this afternoon. With love, Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Wed Nov 27 13:37:40 EST 1996
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MIchael, Hi, there! Even though you have been lax in your responses back to me I decided to write to you, just because I love you so very much!!!! I know, that was corny! Bethany wants to hang out at your house to see Nathan,soon, I said I would have to check with you first( of course). I think you and I could hang out on a Friday night and then you & I and Bethany can hang out the next day so she can see him. What do you think? Just let me know... I'm writing this on Wednesday & am sort of sick & hope I feel better for tomorrow. I'll see you soon. Love, Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: MIchael Martin
Date: Wed Dec 11 12:44:13 EST 1996
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I can't believe that it has been so long since you and I have been here, almost a month!!! We shouldn't let that happen again. I just want to tell you that I'm going to miss you like crazy over break and I love you very much. Yours truly, Blaire

Name: Blaire Eveland
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Subject: Michael Martin
Date: Mon Dec 16 07:33:42 EST 1996
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Michael, Why haven't you visited me here for so long? I'm just wondering, that's all. I love you. Yours, Blaire